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lotus_beauty ([personal profile] lotus_beauty) wrote2005-02-22 10:32 pm
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Suddenly – Part3

Title: Suddenly – Part3: How Does It Feel
Author: [livejournal.com profile] lotus_beauty
Genre: J-pop/rock
Pairings: GacktxYou
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Gackt and You realize what is really important for them.
Warnings: shounen-ai, yaoi, m/m
Notes: Third and last of three parts, this one in You’s POV




Part3: How Does It Feel


When You got home that night, he was surprised to see Mika at the door instead of Gackt, but when she hugged him, it felt like more than one person missed him. It felt good to come home to people who really cared. Seeing Gackt on the couch made his heart ache. He could tell that the singer had been crying, by his eyes and face. He never wanted to cause that ever again.

One might ask, how does it feel to know someone loves you? When he looked into Gackt’s eyes that night, while they were lying in bed together, he knew. It was frightening to know that one false move would cause the man to break into millions of tiny pieces. He’d been protecting Gackt for as long as he knew the man, always trying to be the strong one. Maybe it was time for Gackt to protect him as well.

You pondered this as he blew smoke from his lips and dropped his cigarette to the ground, putting it out with his foot. He looked to his right to see Gackt lounging against the building silently, his pose of boredom perfected. The guitarist shook his head and turned to look left at Mika, who was fidgeting as she waited for her boyfriend to arrive.

“He’ll be here soon. I promise.” She smiled and gave a victory sign. “Thank you for inviting us out.”

“No problem, Michan.” Gackt moved closer to You. “Is that him?” He pointed.

Mika turned and squealed, bouncing over to her boyfriend and hugging him. A bit of longing entered You’s stomach, wishing his relationship with Gackt had that much enthusiasm. He blinked when he felt Gackt’s hand rub his back gently and looked down at the singer. You smiled when he saw the soft look in Gackt’s eyes, resisting the urge to lean down and kiss him.

“Come on!” Mika dragged her boyfriend over to them and introduced them to Takuei. After the introductions, she hauled them all into the restaurant. “I am dying to eat in Gackt’s restaurant!” she exclaimed as she lead them in through the back, stopping when they hit the kitchen area.

“Don’t worry Michan, I can lead us from here.” Gackt patted her head as he and You passed her. The singer led them through various halls and into the back area of private rooms, choosing his favorite. “Nothing but the best for the birthday girl,” Gackt said as he sat at the table.

You watched Mika squeal and bounce as he and Gackt sat down. Takuei calmed her and got her over to the table before long.

“So, are you going out after dinner?” Gackt asked as the two newcomers looked over the menu.

Takuei nodded. “Karaoke with our friends.” He grinned. “Do you want to come with us?”

Gackt laughed as the waiter appeared to take their orders. “I can karaoke here.” He smiled. “I would be recognized somewhere and then you’d be swamped with my fans. It would ruin your party.”

“My friends will never believe I got to eat my birthday dinner with You and Gackt,” Mika bubbled with excitement.

Gackt and You then made their orders, giving the other couple a little bit more time to make their selection. It wasn’t long before they were sipping on their drinks, chatting casually. You, for the most part, stayed silent, only taking part in the conversation when Gackt invited him in. He watched quietly as the other three chatted and laughed with them.

“Oh! I have something for you!” Takuei told his girlfriend and dug into his pocket.

“What is it?” Mika tugged at his arm.

Gackt laughed as Takuei teased her and said he wouldn’t give her the present if she didn’t want to be surprised. You looked to Gackt and smiled at his laughter, his world stopping as the singer looked over at him. He and the singer just gazed at one another in that moment, sharing something private, warming You’s heart as Mika’s squealing brought them both back to reality. Takuei was hooking a beautiful necklace around her neck when You looked over.

“It’s lovely,” he smiled at her.

“It will only look lovely on a beautiful girl like you,” Gackt told her.

“You charmer.” Mika laughed.

“Devil!” Takuei pointed at him. “He’s trying to steal you with his words!”

Gackt laughed. “I already have someone,” he told them and took a sip of his water. The two looked like they were going to ask but the waiter interrupted by bringing in their meal, distracting them quite well.

You smirked at Gackt when he glanced over and mentally noted that he would have to owe Gackt something for that wonderful comment. Dinner went faster than he’d expected it to, and soon enough, their plates were empty and Takuei protested that he wanted to pay for his and Mika’s meals. Gackt sent them off not long after, demanding they not be late for karaoke with their friends.

Mika hugged the two men as they all got up. “Thank you so much!”

“Make sure you come back sometime.” Gackt kissed her cheek.

“And drink lots,” You told her as he hugged her.

She giggled. “I will!” she called and waved as she and Takuei hurried out. “Bye!”

“Do you think she’ll be home tonight?” You asked as he and Gackt sat back down at the table.

“She said she would be spending the night at Takuei’s place.” The singer took a sip of his water and sighed. “I guess we’re all alone.”

“Yeah.” You smiled to himself.

“You look happy about that.” Gackt grinned at him as the waiter came back.

“Anything else, sir?” he asked.

“Just a car for home,” the vocalist told him as he hurried away to do Gackt’s bidding. “Well, shall we get going home?”

You grabbed Gackt’s arm as he started to stand and pulled him back down again. “Can I ask you about something?”

“What is it?” He looked concerned as he sat down again.

You opened his mouth, and then shut it again, not sure if he knew the words he wanted to say. “Well, are we… Is there something more than friendship between us?” he asked nervously.

Gackt smiled and touched You’s chin, drawing him closer to press his lips against those of the guitarist, causing You to melt into the kiss. He never understood why every time he kissed Gackt, he felt like the earth had been pulled out from under him—he did now.

“There always was something more between us,” the singer told You when their lips parted. “Now we both know it.”

Leaning his forehead against Gackt’s, You sighed and murmured, “I’m glad we do.”

“Me too.”

~***~

“You haven’t been limping today.” Gackt closed the door behind him as You stopped in the middle of the front room. “Does it feel better?”

“Yeah.” The guitarist turned and waited as Gackt took his shoes off, approaching him in his socks. He reached out and snaked his arms around the singer’s body, leaning close to steal a kiss from his lips. As he felt Gackt’s arms wrap around his shoulders, their lips pulled apart for breath. “My leg feels much better,” he murmured against the singer’s lips, feeling his warm breath.

Gackt leaned against his body, obviously noting something else pressing against him. “I can tell,” he replied and kissed the guitarist again, coaxing him toward his bedroom with his lips, to which You willingly followed. He stopped off at the bathroom, taking only a moment before returning to again tease the guitarist with his lips. Once inside, Gackt kicked the door shut and peeled You’s shirt off and looked over his torso, making sure his bruises were healing properly. You smiled at the singer when he kissed his shoulder. He held back a shiver, saving it for later.

The singer carefully pulled You’s pants down to check his leg over and kissed the inside of his leg when he was satisfied with the progress. He did the same with the guitarist’s boxers before letting his own clothes be taken off of him. You was very willing to help him with it and did just that. It wasn’t long before their lips were inseparable and they were moving toward the bed. As You climbed onto the bed and laid back, Gackt fast on his heels, he couldn’t help but feel a slight nervousness.

“What is it?” Gackt asked, nuzzling his nose.

You looked up into Gackt’s eyes and remembered all the times before that they’d had sex on this very same bed. Somehow, it all felt different now. Trust. He trusted Gackt more.

“It feels like our first night together,” You murmured in reply.

“It is.” Gackt’s eyes shone in the dim moonlight from the window, his dark eyes reflecting in the light like a cat. The sight made the guitarist shiver as he looked over Gackt’s body. It looked like he was a cat who had just caught his prey.

“I just wonder…”

“Hm?” The vocalist crawled up over his body, careful not to aggravate any of his healing wounds.

“Is it just us?” You asked in a whisper. “Are we exclusive?” he dared.

“Who else would I let take up so much of my free time that I care for their wounds so gently than my only lover?” Gackt asked with a smile.

The guitarist smiled and leaned up as Gackt moved closer to kiss him. He touched the singer’s cheek as the kiss deepened, losing himself into it. As they broke the kiss, the singer touched his right thigh lightly, making him finally shiver.

“How does it feel?” Gackt murmured softly against his lips. “Can you bend it without hurting?”

You had the urge to tell him it felt damn good because the light touch had turned him on, more than he’d expected. “I can.” He nodded and stole another kiss as Gackt gently pushed his legs apart, to which he willingly surrendered. As the singer lay down against his body, the warmth of his body and lips against You’s neck made him melt against the bed once again. He gasped softly as the singer’s hips rolled against his own, and he felt teeth nibbling on his collarbone.

It was when Gackt teased his fingertips over You’s member that the guitarist’s brain shut down for good. He moaned as he gazed up into Gackt’s deep eyes and saw that his lover’s eyes were hazed with the lust he felt. He wanted to wrap his legs around Gackt and demand that the singer fuck him right there; he wanted to roll them over and thrust himself deep into his lover over and over. He wanted to, but when he moved his leg, he realized that he couldn’t. Gackt must have saw it in his eyes and felt his leg move, because he laid a hand on the injured leg, shook his head and pressed a kiss to You’s forehead. The guitarist watched he leaned over to grab a bottle and a condom from the bedside table.

“This will be the last time we’ll have to use this,” Gackt said as he ripped the wrapping for the condom open and put it on his lover. “I promise,” he murmured and kissed You, making the violinist smile.

The singer waved the bottle in front of You’s face, clearly wanting him to watch it, and he did so willingly. Gackt popped the top open and smirked mischievously as he tilted the bottle and began to dribble the lube over You’s erection. The guitarist let out a moan as he watched Gackt reach down and spread the liquid over his skin slowly, making him squirm and whimper.

“Sssh…” Gackt took You’s hands and drew him up into a sitting position, the guitarist leaning forward to capture his lover’s lips as he felt his lover’s heat around him. He moaned into the singer’s mouth, wishing he could fall back and melt into the mattress again. A soft gasp escaped You’s lips as the singer began to move his body up and down over him, a silent moan mingling with a pleasured sigh as he gazed at his lover through half lidded eyes.

You watched his lover, coaxing a kiss or two from him as they moved against each other slowly. Their kisses became interrupted by moans as the singer started to bounce his hips faster over his lover, both of them desperately seeking their climax. It wasn’t long after that You succumbed to an orgasm, his fingers digging into his lover’s back as he shuddered in ecstasy. He was about to fall into a post-orgasmic euphoria when he decided he would rather help his lover along, and pumped his lover’s arousal and nibbled on his neck. It drove his lover over the edge, the singer crying out as he came, spilling himself over their bodies with a shiver before he leaned limply against the guitarist. You hugged his lover close and kissed his neck lightly.

“God…” he heard the singer murmur.

“What?” You was amused by the sound of his voice.

“You felt it, didn’t you?” Gackt mumbled against You’s shoulder.

“I always feel it, Gakuchan.” You pulled back and looked into his eyes. “It always felt different when I was with you.”

“I feel it too.” Gackt smiled as he panted.

You noticed of the fine mist of sweat covering his face and body. “How do you always look so beautiful?” He traced a finger over Gackt’s shoulder.

“You’re the one who’s beautiful.” The singer leaned closer and stole a kiss. He smiled and touched You’s cheek once their lips parted. “Do you think it will always be like this?”

“Like what?”

“Amazing?”

“Always.”


~***~

“Hey,” You greeted his two cohorts as he walked up to the coffee table they were seated at. The two were pouring over papers that looked like an absolute mess. “What are you doing?”

Mika sighed. “Rearranging.”

Gackt looked sheepish and kept looking over the papers silently.

With a frown, You dared another question. “Why?”

“Gacchan thought it would be a good idea to jump out and scare me when I was carrying them.” Mika looked up at the guitarist and smiled sweetly as Gackt blushed and murmured an apology.

You laughed and shook his head in amusement. “Well, would you like some help?”

“Yes, please.” Gackt scooted over and patted the spot beside him.

The guitarist plopped himself down and read over a few of the papers, noting their page numbers and got the gist of the assignment. He waded through the papers with one hand as he leaned against the other which was on the floor. Just as he noticed Mika turn to rifle though her purse, he felt warmth on his hand and turned to Gackt who was smiling at him. You noticed that Gackt wasn’t wearing his contacts and smiled, sort of losing himself in his lover’s eyes. They reminded him of how intimate their night had been last night. That is, until a sudden flash interrupted his reverie.

The two stared at Mika who had just taken a picture of them gazing at each other.

“I couldn’t help myself,” she told them and grinned.

“No one else sees that, you hear?” Gackt told her before going back to the papers, You doing the same.

“No way. This is way too precious!” Mika hugged the camera, making You laugh. He wondered what she would end up doing with the picture.

~***~

You watched as Mika jumped when he knocked on her open door. “Ready?” he asked with a grin.

She smiled and nodded to him. He would miss her and was happy to hear her boyfriend had proposed to her.

“I’ll help you,” he offered and came into her room to help collect her bags.

“Here.” Mika handed him a silver frame and turned to grab her bags.

You looked down at it, turned it over and smiled at the picture Mika had taken of him and Gackt. “I’ve always wanted to ask you what happened to this picture.”

“I kept it safe for you.” She winked.

“Thank you.” The guitarist pulled the girl into a hug and squeezed her tightly.

“So how does it feel?” Mika asked as she zipped one last suitcase shut.

“What?”

“Having the most gorgeous, handsome man on the planet?”

You laughed. He took a moment to think and shook his head. “You’ll have to ask me sometime when the idea doesn’t leave my head in the clouds.”

“You mean like, never?” She picked up one of her suitcases and laughed. “I’ll just accept that as an answer.” She smiled, knowing it was.

You grinned as he took a few of her bags. “It will always be like that.”

~***~


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